Contemplation

Prochaska gives us the stages of change. Pre-contemplation, Contemplation, Preparation, Action and Maintenance. As I hold my Stop and Shop brand Rocky Road Ice cream, I would say my fat ass is in the contemplation stage. 

I never thought I would blog about my fat. But something has to keep my honest because well, I’m a good liar. Not by choice but because I have developed this ability to make up stories and talk myself out of basically anything, maybe even breathing. Not to say that I will kill my self one day but that I can basically talk myself out of living. I already have talked myself out of living really, I’m here in my late 20’s with my adorable dog…and my rocky road.  

You see, I went to see a nutritionist this week. Yes, I ate Nuetella AND I bought ice cream after I saw her. Losing weight stresses me out!  Well even the thought of it.

Because of my weight, I am fertile-ly challenged. Instead of ovulating like a normal woman, my ovaries is like an episode of Hoarders and decides to make a pearl necklace of cysts.  Welcome to PCOS. I think in tangents therefore I feel like I should write in them as well.

Join me on my path to sticking to two things, my health and blogging.  I’ll toast with some rocky road!